first of all i dont know how to tell you and i know i shouldn’t but your all i think about everyday and every night your the guy i want. i know i shouldn’t want you but your honestly the only one i want.  everyone tells me that i shouldn’t like you but i don’t listen. so pretty much all i want right now is you.

second of all everything sucks right now. ive never failed a class in my life and now im going to. ive cried the entire day away because i know i won’t pass. if i had a teacher who actually taught me i would know how to do the shit. thanks mr patrick for fucking up my entire life.

third of all i don’t even know what to do with my life anymore. nothing is going well for me. and if i don’t pass then fuck everything else that i had planned for myself. fuck prom. fuck graduation. fuck everythng because it won’t happen for me. ive never hated myself more then i do now.